I said

"Why can't I swallow my feelings? I don't have time to be depressed."

I don't know what's wrong with me, or why I can't deal with it properly. I don't know if my bad reactions are the cause, or just the effect.... I am all kinds of a mess, but I have too much work to do to deal with my personal problems. Is that backwards? But how am I supposed to have time for my emotions when I have so much class work to do.