Being at college has helped me so much to open up more to people; I used to act really differently with my friends, whoever I was dating, and then with my family, but now I feel like I'm finally the same person with everyone. I realized that I could act like my real self (silly. ridiculous. full of laughing fits interspersed with anxiety fits.) and my real friends would still love me. I'm so happy about the friends I've made here and I'm so happy about who I've ended up with.
My mom used to complain to me that I didn't act the same whenever my boyfriends would come over our house, but I don't feel like that's true at all this time around. I've been clear (maybe a little too clear) about how I am to Mark, and he still loves me. I find it hard to believe. But I love that I can just laugh until I cry with him. And I do. Same goes for my friends here. I don't ever want to lose any of you.
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