So lately I have realized that when I get upset/depressed and I'm on the computer, I delete Facebook friends. And pictures. And information. I just try to erase myself. But I get upset when people delete me off their Facebook. I deleted like twenty people tonight, it was so productive.
It doesn't even feel like 11:30. What kind of night is this? What day is it? It's Wednesday? I can't even keep track of it, even more. I feel fine sometimes, and then I feel upset, and then I feel dead, and I am screaming inside but I can't say anything out loud, and I just want to talk, but I don't know who I want to talk to, and this isn't even the kind of post I meant to be writing. This is what I write on my private blog not my public one. Must. Censor. Self.
I'm just sort of a mess right now, for no reason. I really am looking forward to spring break. I am tired out and I am confused. I feel like I am never done, even when I maybe am. And crap, I went home tonight so that I could do extra work and get ahead. Obviously, I've done nothing. I just can't function sometimes.
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I know the feeling of never being done, even when you have minimal work or have already finished everything. That's, in fact, why I'm still awake right now when I literally have nothing to do but get ready for bed and sleep.
ReplyDeleteI've been having trouble keeping up with the dates and days as well, boo. I think it's the weirdness of this week.
Spring break will be a welcome blessing for all of us, but I hope that you have an especially relaxing one. I love you, my monkey doodle.
Oh, and might I please request that you not delete me as a Facebook friend seeing as I enjoy being able to stalk you to my heart's content.
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