More, Rambling

I just feel full again- my head feels full, filled up, fuzzy- with thoughts or emotions or something. I'm unsure what to do about it. I feel overwhelmed. I am blaming part of it on Relay for Life. I don't know why I thought it would be a good idea to sign up to be a captain... actually, I didn't sign myself up to be a captain. Carlo did. But it is so much work. I am really stressing out about it and I just need to get a team meeting together but even that just seems like too much work. And no one is joining my team, and I need more people, and more money. It is upsetting. I love Relay for Life, but I am really not okay with leading this whole thing by myself because I didn't even sign myself up for it, and it is so much responsibility and I am afraid of responsibility.

I feel so fuzzy again. I was out of my fog earlier, but I have gotten myself back into it. I don't know what to do. Sitting at my desk for hours and hours every day doesn't feel like real life, I don't feel like I'm doing anything. I don't know what I need to do.